These last couple of weeks have been days of transition for us. Since I’ve finished structured classroom time for the year, we’ve been stumbling toward a new schedule as a family. I’m home a lot more, which has thrown off the kids and Steven from their normal routine. We’ve also had some major events, such as a fundraiser fashion show at the church and the kids finished their most recent semester in gymnastics.
This extra time has allowed me to reflect on the last few years of our lives. We often get asked how we hold our family together on a day to day basis, and a large part of the credit must go to our children. I was looking at their pictures from their first day of gymnastics, two years ago. Orion couldn’t even participate yet. I was a junior in undergrad, focusing on applying to medical school. We had also just started homeschooling.
In the two years since then, our children have not only endured our lifestyle but they have thrived. The girls have grown into two independent and unique young women. Their courage and curiosity never ceases to amaze me. There is so much information that I want to share with them, and I feel like I’ll never have enough time to tell them everything. But they’re listening. And they’re watching. And they’re growing. The only thing that I can do is seize teachable moments as they come, and stay on them to make sure that the lessons stick. So far, so good.
Orion is still finding his way. He becomes more of a fleshed-out person every day, and he is carving out his territory as the baby. He wants to be grown up like his sisters, but he’ll take all the cuddles and snuggles that you’re willing to give. I wonder if I’m being too lenient by not forcing him to be more independent. Maybe I also want to cling to my baby for as long as I can.
This is not how I envisioned my children growing up when I had them. I agonize over the lifestyle that we’ve forced on them, and I wonder if it’s all worth it. I think all parents do. This morning, Blair told me that she doesn’t want to grow up because she wants to live with us forever. I’ll take that as a positive review for now.
Until next time,